2024.04.12
song of the day: scarlett bliss - an april march (not so so subliminally influenced by a ig mutual i'm in love with). half a year passed!! i've been to buenos aires, but i left all i wrote at the hotel pcs in html notes and never finished it.
i've been avoiding this site since i cut off friendships (even contact with some of them) after the elections, and some of them knew about this thing because of it being linked in my twitter bio. talking about it in english feels like betrayal: there's many layers onto why and how we got the first libertarian and self-proclaimed ancap president in history that makes me emphatize with working class who voted him, but the last straw for me was having them spitting out 1976 dictactorship denialism propaganda. i happen to be raised by someone whose brother has been to malvinas war and had a cousin "disappeared" (kidnapped, and sadly, after all these years, safe to say killed) over the crime of working as a cotton harvester close to the argentina-paraguay borders, so it's upsetting to be people willingly fall for it after so many decades of hard work to stop it from happening again.
this half-year revolved around me looking for jobs, finding a job, graduating from tech school, paying potatoes in six installments, trying to revamp this site (so far, the only changes i made were the music page layout and adding that little camera icon in the upper right corner (;), unlocking two new cats i'm gladly spending a good part of my paychecks on (genuinely, love those guys) assisting to free concerts i haven't contributed a single cent in taxes for, waiting for my first webdev career period to start (if the university i'm planning to assists doesn't shut down, shall i explain?) and as always, compulsive hoarding ^__^. hopefully, my next entry is way less bitter.
2023.08.7
song of the day: rockstar - N.E.R.D. still jobless moneyless and everything in between... but i'm looking forward to going to buenos aires later this month :-) that's mostly it.
2023.07.21
no song of the day it's been a week since the last time i've listened to ANYTHING... a week has passed and my brother's friends are finally gone, and since i'm alone for a few days, i feel the insane need to make something here otherwise i'll want to end it all for wasting my winter break. just today i've applied for a job at a poultry shop (because i can't imagine many situations where people may yell at me), i've found out youtube tutorials on javascript and else just don't work for me at all and that i'm still a bit pissed about uroboros and dum spiro spero visuals (with a few exceptions like reiketsu, blossoming beelzebub lsv and hageshisa) being a bit mid and that they don't fully make justice to their sound. i've been considering doing physical collages until i asked the price for color photocopies and digital collages as well but i feel like i'm too silly for that !! just sticking to position:absolute at the moment u__u.
2023.07.13
song of the day: the calling - death in june. i'm quite used to having absolutely nothing going on in my life so anything makes me go like there's a lot happening lately: i've got glasses (i'm officially almost blind in my right eye, my left one is perfect for some reason tough), increases for all my prescripted pills and travelled over 4000km back and forth with my divorced parents to my mom's hometown in a week, leaving her there and getting two my brother's friends along with us (originally three, but one of them had to stay because they'd planned to leave me at some woman i've never met in my life home instead without my knowledge (!)). since they're staying at my dad's and i'm not really welcomed there i'm making everything in my hands to make my winter holidays end as soon as possible.
2023.06.26
song of the day: bruise pristine - placebo. in the past weekend my phone decided to end it all and dragged with it absolutely every single pic i've been saving for a good while... i've lost my job and i'm under an insane debt now!! but it's all okay because i got a new phone that works so much better than my past brick i dared to call a phone and more time to keep up with assignments at very least...
2023.06.23
song of the day: i'll - dir en grey. felt useful today. hope it lasts.
2023.06.22
song of the day: there's a light that never goes out (not because i'm a smiths enjoyer specifically (i swear i tried), but for some reason i've heard this being played twice today at stores on my way back home). this very entry is just here as filler lol. i've been unable to make myself care about school or media or anything during these past weeks so there's nothing interesting to write down. hm.
Name:Lihuen
Age: 18
Location: Patagonia, Argentina
Birthday: October 31st.
Star Sign: Scorpio Sun, Libra Moon, Aquarius Rising
Height: 163cm
Weight: I'm bulking, so a secret rn
Relationship Status: Single
Hobbies: Collecting cds, learning languages and else
colour: purple
Flower: dazanias
Food: chipa guazu
Season: winter
Drink: mirinda manzana
Music Genres: tango, death metal, industrial.
Movies: the handmaiden
Flavours: boiled corn
Animal: carpincho.
Fashion: 2007 kaká
colour: orange
Flower: i love all flowers :-)
Food: sausages
Season: summer
Drink: pure red wine
Music Genres: 911 inspired music
Movies: 911 inspired movies
Flavours: too sugary stuff ?? idk
Animal: cockroaches
Morning or Night Person?: morning
Lefty or Righty?: righty ? i can't tell whether this is about handwriting or not
Introvert or Extrovert?: Introvert
Coffee or Tea?: coffee
Messy or Neat Person?: adhd kind of messy -not the leaving rests of food to rot kind, but the hoarder type
Cats or Dogs?: cats i guess !! i have three of those
PC or Mac?: can't macs be pcs as well? i could never afford them though
Text or Call?: always text
Meat or Fish?: fish !! love tuna
Coke or Pepsi: coke
Stripes or Polka Dot?: Polka Dot
What makes you happy?: compulsive shopping, skipping school.
How many siblings do you have?: two younger brothers
What is your go-to fast food order?: not a fast food chains fan but i enjoy fries... i really do.
Do you have any bad habits?: i have pica :/
What is the craziest thing you have done?: i'm extremely boring.
What was your dream job as a kid?: vet, fashion designer, lawyer, basketball player...
How many countries have you travelled to?: 4: paraguay, bolivia, brazil and chile.
Who is your celebrity crush?: i don't think i've ever had a proper crush on any celebrity, but toshiya is close enough.
Do you know your personality type?: What is it?: INTP i think
What is one thing you wished people knew about you? some people seem to be scared to approach me because they don't know many other goths were i live. i'd like them to know i'm really open to making friends and i'll try having a conversation with literally anyone.
What social media are you addicted to?: i don't use socmed as frequently as i used to but i'm a rehab twitter addict.
What are you happiest with in your life?: non-ironically, discovering dir en grey. i may had never considered ever learning coding if it wasn't because of my silly hpx :,).
What is one thing that you’ve never revealed to your parents? the fact i'm lesbian...
What is your best physical feature?: i really like my eyes and nose -probably my most ethnic feature. i also like the fact my legs can pr benchpress 120kg.
What inspires you?: dir en grey.
What is your favorite ice-cream flavor? tutti-frutti ice cream i haven't tried for about a decade but it's still in my heart
What is your favorite sport?: football is the one i enjoy the most watching, sadly i suck at it. i'm insanely good at basketball though...
What is your favorite candle scent?: i've got some capuccino artisanal ones a little ago and changed the trajectory of my life.
What was your favorite subject in High School?: chemistry
What was your least favorite subject in High School?: maths !!
What was your favorite TV show when you were a child?: backyardigans :,).
Are you high maintenance?: nope
Are you more likely to avoid conflict or engage it head-on?: avoid !! weirdly i'm quite a peaceful person but i will fight anything if it's really necessary...
If you had more courage what would you do differently in your life now?: leave home and move to this larger city next to mine.
Do you have a tattoo?: none
Do you believe ignorance is bliss? Why or why not?: it is !! i'm fairly less stressed since i stopped keeping up to current local political and economic events. they obviously keep impacting my life but my head is full of nothing.
What is your most used swear word?: i don't really curse, i'm not a fan of english curse words.
What is something that amazes you?: colors in nature: the fact that everything is perfectly sorted and that so many beautiful and vivid colors are able to exist out of pure nothing.
What scares you about aging?: i'd honestly love to be retired and have enough free time to do anything, but i wouldn't like to get old enough i'm becoming a burden to my relatives to the point they might hate me.
How many pairs of shoes do you currently own?: three.
How many rings before you answer the phone?: i don't have any sound on.
How old were you when you found out that Santa wasn’t real?: about five years old.
Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?: not a store but mercari.
Would you ever consider living abroad?: i love my country an insane lot for it.
How many days could you last in solitary confinement?: i've spent a whole month alone and done well so idk.
Have you forgiven yourself for past personal failures? Why or why not?: i was a silly preteen in most of them and i get that but i like holding a grudge
Have you ever dated two people at a time?: nope
What is one thing you’d rather pay someone to do than do yourself? Why?: anything that revolves around clothes.
What is under your bed?: dust
What is on the walls of the room you are in?: a lot of posters !! most of them are there since i was about thirteen. i also have half a wall filled with kyo pics...
What is something you wish you were gifted at doing?: maths (algebra) ands sewing.
What is the first thing you do when you get home?: wash my hands
What is the first app you check when you wake up in the morning?: twitter
What book are you reading at the moment?: i don't have much time for it... 5/2/24 update: the nanking massacre by iris chang.
What book do you remember as being important to you?: library of babel by borges. i read it at a time i was deliberating signing up to a tech school.
What is the strangest thing you believed as a child?: give me a day to think... 6 months later, it had come to my mind i used to think that after getting yout first period, you could get pregnant from kissing. i've had my first period when i was eight so i kept as much distance from my male classmates as humanly possibly and they didn't get why.
What position do you sleep in?: i sleep on my back like a corpse
What was the most recent compliment you’ve received and savored?: that i have cool jackets... specially happy of this because i get them in a thrift-fair in the north for a few bucks...
What was your first ever cell phone?: an alcatel c1.
What would you name your daughter if you had one? i haven't thought of it
What is something you’ve never done that you’d like to try?: eat edible rocks
How often do you skip breakfast?: i just can't afford to skip breakfast. i love breakfast.
What do you call a carbonated drink?: i understand carbonated drinks as quite any drink with gas added...
Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?: sure
If you had 1 year left to live, what would you do? i always live like i have one year left to live
Do you see the glass as half empty or half full?: half full
